This is like an angry letter to myself i guess. I just hate feeling second best sometimes it can be so difficult when you feel so strongly yet they love someone else that is life i guess. i accept this and this blog is only really to help me deal with things in a creative way, I do want to say one thing to this person though and that is to shut the fuck up!! if i randomly bumped into her in town. i wouldnt be responsible for my actions. I would see red and attack... and no i cant fight for shit but i respect people that much that I would do it.
Cant you accept he's happy and stop dragging things out, leading him on, & fucking his feelings up.
talk about a mindfuck?!
Jesus!
This certain person needs to get a grip & i dont care if she is reading this. she needs to get off her high horse & stop thinking the world owes her a favour cause it bloody doesn't at first I was happy because you made him so happy I even tried to get you & him back together. Because i was always looking out for his best interests.
& If he feels he needs you to go on then by all means I will back out & let the love & fireworks happen
darling, the only way he will know how you feel is if you tell him. It's not that hard. like i said get off your fucking high horse. Taunting him like this & leading him on like this wont help ya babe. It will only make him resent you in time... do yourself a favour and stop fucking him over.
You want him? contact him... easy as that... tube.
FUCK SAKE
In other news i spoke to angry grandpa and he is now my grandfather on facebook hell yeah! :)
he also thinks im purdy & i just want to give him a hug he has entertained me so many times & kept my spirits up so yes he deserves a huge hug!
I wish i could still play second life as im missing my lovely american friend kristy, (She is the only long distance friend i have apart from Jenn who is born & bred as a scottish chick!) But yeah.. anywaaays.
I miss the escapism it gives you. Sometimes my emotions eat me up inside & i feel like running and jumping off a cliff. Guess i care too much... that's my downfall.
OOH P.s i want chocolate and cant wait til im paid!! anddd I really want to play my machine rainbow riches community cash mmm yeah. (I wont spend much i promise) :P
Oh the simple things in life. I want to escape & need to find my freaking ipod & imagine im on a beach listening to you. you make things easier mr.ipod. If i could i would marry you.
Anyways im away cause i'll end up saying something i will regret. (or i might have just done that... )
Fuckk...
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