Dont hold your breath. Im not losing sleep over you.

Well things went weird today. Basically i woke at 7pm... Woops...

Decided i had about ten pound in my bank account & Stevie & I wanted to do some baking so i thought yeah i'll get up get ready and nip to the shops to buy ingrediants..

So i got all dolled up because i was in a REALLY good mood. the happiest I have felt in a long time.

So i go downstairs & there is a letter from Stow college, Glasgow My heart starts racing.. My hands are trembling.. So i sit on the stairs. & Reliase I haven't gained a place on the course... All feelings go running through my head. I couldnt help it , I broke down on the stairs. Crying hysterically. I wanted to be on that course more than anything in the world!! Everything i done... all the effort I put in. 2 years of acting... down the drain.

My day has consisted of crying constantly. Because I feel that someone has came along with a chainsaw and tore my dreams apart... I should be angry... but I am beyond repair so dissapointed... Absolutely Devasted... Times are bad but i have also believed in motivation. So i will fix this fucked up mess.

I will find another college. & Have actually applied for other colleges. Motherwell, Coatbridge & Adam smith. I will make it into this industry because I have potential & I will do it!

The only way to get over this is Be positive! you have to. or life swallows you up.

You stop showering, getting dressed, sleeping , eating, & depression is NOT the way to go. Trust me I know.

Also You me at six always help me out difficult times. So I am going to rely on them. My favourite band. For a reason.

They are so talented. & Their music touches me in such a way & i feel guilty for neglecting them recently. Because they will always be in my life. 

So to summarise. I will do this. so fuck you stow! I don't need you.

& When I get on my place at another college. I Will laugh so much. I will make this so basically Stow you have lost out.

So HA! I'm going to follow my dreams, It's all I can do.

Understand this. - You kick me when i'm down But I will prevail. I will carry on & Never give up.

So forget it Stow. You think this is keeping me down. Your wrong.

IM IN LOVE!!

Hey everyone little update on my bloggy... cause i havent seen you in such a long time!! :O

Loving edinburgh, loving the sites, the company, the scottish love really.

Such a soppy git always will be! so happy i'm back on talking terms with my father which means a lot to me. As happiness insue's sadness sets in. a shame really. having real money struggles I'm not going to lie part of it is to do with my addiction... yes i have an addiction... to gambling. just like my mother :/

I'm not proud of it, I want help & need help. I tick all boxes of a compulsive gambler & it scares me being only 20 years old and in trouble with money to such a degree.

This machine here is the DEVIL

I am growing so impatient waiting for this letter to come through the door.!! I want to make something of myself more than ever before now due to a certain event.

I was called many names "dosser" being one of them, & yes i may be on benefits for now but I am making something of myself. I am going to college & when I get that big fat HND certificate after 2 years of hardwork I will find you & shove it in  your face & say who's the dosser now.. idiot

Ufft. some people. seriously. Feel sorry for his brother. :/ 

So sorry.

30 year old man insulting 20 year old girl pffft. nice one.

In other news. I am in love ... not with who you all think!! ;)

But with John Simm ooft yes! he is so fucking yummy, I could be power hungry... :/

He's a very sexy and dominating & funny man. & a terrific actor! :)

So much love for him , david tennant & the doctor who team. you are legends! what would life be without Doctor Who!! :O

What would life be without the special ones in it. who make it special

So the past few weeks have been crazy american candy fun times! :)

Rees's peanut butter cups... yes! & my new favorite candy corn!! amazing!!

Good times were had indeed!

& they keep on rolling i left this blog over night to finish for you all now!

& Stevie bought us munchies mmm yes!!

OOH YES

i need to go now because i need to consume this yummy food. ciao!

The lengthy blog i promised

Hey everyone so this is the blog i promised when i woke up. It is now 6pm so i feel i owe it to you all

So recently in my life well... where to start...

so much has happened to be honest...

I'll start from when I first created my modelmayhem account the link is here!

http://www.modelmayhem.com/2611156

I got loads of messages asking for shoots but only decided to go through one until i sort out my college audition

Here are some photos from the shoot & all credit goes to JD Photography - Glasgow

He is a cracking photographer and deserves all the recocnition he can get.

Wanna see more?

Click this link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6LvSPaGRUs

Or The same Video But with A Background song

Click this link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3E1X0Gl2Ixk&feature=relmfu

Anyway enough about the photoshoot!

Big thanks to Stevie Perry & Jawad Akbar

So Stevie won a lot of money & treated himself to a blackberry & I was happy for him

Then he asks me out of the blue Here kim! do you want one?

So I'm now the proud owner of a blackberry curve :)

Feel like a business woman! Thank you steviecake for that :)

& to celebrate us both passing the credit check stevie bought us ice cream! and it was really yummy!

but i gots some on my nose :(

Look

I really do love being able to take a photograph anytime & anywhere i want with my new phone. :)

Also It's my audition on saturday for HND Musical theatre

If i get in I will write a lengthy blog describing the whole process for all you viewers out there! :)

With all the happiness comes the sadness... I owe 3 - £60 and need to give Stevie £40 because he hasn't been paid yet. I also need to pay for travel expenses to my audition & that's £24 & I owe the bank £20

So funds are really tight! & that money is supposed to last me 2 weeks. :( 

& it's all gone in 3 days :'(

Feel like crying.

But you guys can help it doesn't cost you anything!

There are adverts on this page & on my youtube videos all you need to do guys is click them then shut them down if you wish I will get money for every advert you click so get clicking guys! :)

Enjoy my videos & blog.

& Dont forget to keep clicking!

Kimmi out!

Another blog tomorrow. :)

Or maybe later today however the mood takes me!

THE 6AM BLOG

Well once again I am awake at 6am... :/

I always say i will go to sleep at the right time and it never happens

I have a very important audition on saturday and feel without the right amount of sleep im going to be a mess :(

I think after this blog i am going to get some shut eye!!

Funny story was stevie my awesome room mate made me 1am breakfast lol.. no wonder i feel OBESE!!

but thanks darling.

He wants me to play call of duty on his xbox and I want too but i'm not fond of games..

I have noticed thanks to the amazing wonders of google my views on this have shot up

So for all my new readers!

HELLO!! DONT BE SCARED!! :)

subscribe because I only have 1 subscriber :(

I am so shocked that the world wants to hear what i am saying and thinking and it really makes me feel special so keep up the views everyone!

Anyway i am gonna boost because I am mega tired!

Night everyone :)

xxxx.

P.S I will do a lengthy blog later when I'm awake so keep your eyes peeled! :)

Stevie (With short hair) & I

HEY EVERYONE HAVE A LOOK AT THESE! :)

Just incase you were wanting more Kimmi action :)

These are my video's from youtube 

Dont forget to click the ad's at the start of the videos & then little Kimmi makes some money :)

Nah im joking do what you want :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzcSPmSaV4Q

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OvtjU5d_tVI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgJtgK3aWy8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NUe0fQcPtU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3E1X0Gl2Ixk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6LvSPaGRUs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzBd7tU4yjo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfdDsvPuoJ4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYspbb9hOe8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mMhGlpBdX0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sNeZWiZhd9s

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFXTWS4fI0A

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNsD_7lzXdk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qq0YTZjg2Yw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3whsuk_FpRM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjwjBgpHxBY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85xrWXZJjpo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1My6D6Ps_j0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye6iDp0_PMw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yWnwrmngLk

HEY GUYS CHECK THESE OUT :)

So this blog hasn't got enough Kimmi action on it??

Not to worry! Check these videos out :)

And dont forget to click the ad's on the video's cause then little Kimmi makes money :)

Lol! Nah im joking do what you want guys!

here's the videos!

Enjoy!

GUESS WHAT!!

I have really good news on the moving out situation. Im crouching on a chair listening to the summer set :)

it's a sunny day yet im really cold. :/

ANYWAYS!!

I recieved an email from rettie & co a letting company from Glasgow

I have found a modern 1 bedroom flat in Maryhill & I have been granted a viewing on saturday

This could be the start of my new life... i hope!

So Stevie & I are going to go to the viewing and if i like it I need to pay them £150 asap

If this works out I'm going to be so happy.

Problem is... funds :/

Money will be tight but I bloody hope I like it

"Im at the first hurdle but When i reach the finish line It will be worth the stress"

:)

Anyways i need to go I'm going to tidy my baby's bedroom because it's all messy

ciao x