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Fight for me
I wanted you to hold me until the night dissapeared
I tried to keep it all inside but i need you here by my side.
I wanted you right here to stay by my side, always
to fight for me for all eternity as I'd do for you.
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
Promise
I promise I will blog more often. Just been buzzy recently..
I feel like I lose out on my life when I don't blog.
So yes I will carry on blogging because I wanna look at this when i'm old & grey!
CHANGES.
Right peeps, I haven't done one of these in ages.
But over the time away I have grown up... big time...
I'm listening to Ellie Goulding & just her voice brings back loads of memories.. Bad memories
The time when I nearly went too far.. The month I was diagnosed as having severe depression and anxiety issues.
Kilbirnie... Hardest month of my life!
But since that horrible time things have got so much better.
This blog is mainly for me, & I will post some Ellie Goulding songs here, because the memory was a terrible time, but I want to look at this blog listen to the songs & think how much better my life has got since then.
This time last year was the worst year of my life... My grandad passed away & I had lost my father as a part of my everyday life. My parents split after 18 years.. Terrible time.
But this year my life has changed so much, I am now 20 & I am finally gaining independence with my amazing partner by my side. Steven Perry. He has been in my life since 6th February 2012
The day we met we never slept, just chatted ALL night, Ended up meeting his family & staying over night.
Went back to Irvine looking at the photos of us on the train, (I am writing this so I never forget)
Got home worried we would never talk again & There was a message from him waiting on me. So happy he mailed me :)
We then went through a time of here & there travelling to Edinburgh him travelling to Irvine
Everyone said It wouldn't work!! & I am so glad they were wrong because Steven is mine & yes I won't deny it, it was a struggle at first.
Steven & I then fell in love with another thing, (apart from each other) we started to gamble & ended up using a lot of our benefit money to try and win a quick buck!
but we came out of it when we realised we could make a life for ourselves.
I moved to Edinburgh - 29/02/12
So 6 months later, I'm sitting here next to my boyfriend listening to old songs from my past, I have a smile on my face. & we are both sitting blogging our lives. a special moment really.
I have made amends with my mother & father & brother & Have a great supportive family.
Still close to my friends as always! all my special friends always remain in my heart.
As for education, No I am not at college but I am going to get a job full time/part time I don't mind!
I have a flat to look after for now.
Steven & I now have a flat in Ayr, it is perfect. perfect area. just everything about it is perfect.
My modelling is taking a back seat but I still love it as ever, It is a great feeling in front of a camera & I can just be myself which is a great breath of fresh air!
So my life is going well & it has been a productive year. so i'm pretty chuffed!
I mean nothing is over, the next year will bring hard work, budgeting, maturing, bills,work
But fuck it! Bring it on!
"This is called growing up" :)
I am 20 years old & I am still maturing but I have matured so much from last year til now!
So my life outlook in August 2012
Family - Check!
Friends - Check!
Love - Check!
Work - Not as of yet, Pending
:)
Hope you enjoyed.
Costa Del Perry!
06/02/2012
Steven Gordon Perry
&
Kimberley Esme Christine Louise Cassidy
Thursday, 31 May 2012
Monday, 21 May 2012
Dont hold your breath. Im not losing sleep over you.
Well things went weird today. Basically i woke at 7pm... Woops...
Decided i had about ten pound in my bank account & Stevie & I wanted to do some baking so i thought yeah i'll get up get ready and nip to the shops to buy ingrediants..
So i got all dolled up because i was in a REALLY good mood. the happiest I have felt in a long time.
So i go downstairs & there is a letter from Stow college, Glasgow My heart starts racing.. My hands are trembling.. So i sit on the stairs. & Reliase I haven't gained a place on the course... All feelings go running through my head. I couldnt help it , I broke down on the stairs. Crying hysterically. I wanted to be on that course more than anything in the world!! Everything i done... all the effort I put in. 2 years of acting... down the drain.
My day has consisted of crying constantly. Because I feel that someone has came along with a chainsaw and tore my dreams apart... I should be angry... but I am beyond repair so dissapointed... Absolutely Devasted... Times are bad but i have also believed in motivation. So i will fix this fucked up mess.
I will find another college. & Have actually applied for other colleges. Motherwell, Coatbridge & Adam smith. I will make it into this industry because I have potential & I will do it!
The only way to get over this is Be positive! you have to. or life swallows you up.
You stop showering, getting dressed, sleeping , eating, & depression is NOT the way to go. Trust me I know.
Also You me at six always help me out difficult times. So I am going to rely on them. My favourite band. For a reason.
They are so talented. & Their music touches me in such a way & i feel guilty for neglecting them recently. Because they will always be in my life.
So to summarise. I will do this. so fuck you stow! I don't need you.
& When I get on my place at another college. I Will laugh so much. I will make this so basically Stow you have lost out.
So HA! I'm going to follow my dreams, It's all I can do.
Understand this. - You kick me when i'm down But I will prevail. I will carry on & Never give up.
So forget it Stow. You think this is keeping me down. Your wrong.
Saturday, 12 May 2012
IM IN LOVE!!
Hey everyone little update on my bloggy... cause i havent seen you in such a long time!! :O
Loving edinburgh, loving the sites, the company, the scottish love really.
Such a soppy git always will be! so happy i'm back on talking terms with my father which means a lot to me. As happiness insue's sadness sets in. a shame really. having real money struggles I'm not going to lie part of it is to do with my addiction... yes i have an addiction... to gambling. just like my mother :/
I'm not proud of it, I want help & need help. I tick all boxes of a compulsive gambler & it scares me being only 20 years old and in trouble with money to such a degree.
This machine here is the DEVIL
I am growing so impatient waiting for this letter to come through the door.!! I want to make something of myself more than ever before now due to a certain event.
I was called many names "dosser" being one of them, & yes i may be on benefits for now but I am making something of myself. I am going to college & when I get that big fat HND certificate after 2 years of hardwork I will find you & shove it in your face & say who's the dosser now.. idiot
Ufft. some people. seriously. Feel sorry for his brother. :/
So sorry.
30 year old man insulting 20 year old girl pffft. nice one.
In other news. I am in love ... not with who you all think!! ;)
But with John Simm ooft yes! he is so fucking yummy, I could be power hungry... :/
He's a very sexy and dominating & funny man. & a terrific actor! :)
So much love for him , david tennant & the doctor who team. you are legends! what would life be without Doctor Who!! :O
What would life be without the special ones in it. who make it special
So the past few weeks have been crazy american candy fun times! :)
Rees's peanut butter cups... yes! & my new favorite candy corn!! amazing!!
Good times were had indeed!
& they keep on rolling i left this blog over night to finish for you all now!
& Stevie bought us munchies mmm yes!!
OOH YES
i need to go now because i need to consume this yummy food. ciao!
Wednesday, 25 April 2012
The lengthy blog i promised
Hey everyone so this is the blog i promised when i woke up. It is now 6pm so i feel i owe it to you all
So recently in my life well... where to start...
so much has happened to be honest...
I'll start from when I first created my modelmayhem account the link is here!
I got loads of messages asking for shoots but only decided to go through one until i sort out my college audition
Here are some photos from the shoot & all credit goes to JD Photography - Glasgow
He is a cracking photographer and deserves all the recocnition he can get.
Wanna see more?
Click this link!
Or The same Video But with A Background song
Click this link!
Anyway enough about the photoshoot!
Big thanks to Stevie Perry & Jawad Akbar
So Stevie won a lot of money & treated himself to a blackberry & I was happy for him
Then he asks me out of the blue Here kim! do you want one?
So I'm now the proud owner of a blackberry curve :)
Feel like a business woman! Thank you steviecake for that :)
& to celebrate us both passing the credit check stevie bought us ice cream! and it was really yummy!
but i gots some on my nose :(
Look
I really do love being able to take a photograph anytime & anywhere i want with my new phone. :)
Also It's my audition on saturday for HND Musical theatre
If i get in I will write a lengthy blog describing the whole process for all you viewers out there! :)
With all the happiness comes the sadness... I owe 3 - £60 and need to give Stevie £40 because he hasn't been paid yet. I also need to pay for travel expenses to my audition & that's £24 & I owe the bank £20
So funds are really tight! & that money is supposed to last me 2 weeks. :(
& it's all gone in 3 days :'(
Feel like crying.
But you guys can help it doesn't cost you anything!
There are adverts on this page & on my youtube videos all you need to do guys is click them then shut them down if you wish I will get money for every advert you click so get clicking guys! :)
Enjoy my videos & blog.
& Dont forget to keep clicking!
Kimmi out!
Another blog tomorrow. :)
Or maybe later today however the mood takes me!
Tuesday, 24 April 2012
THE 6AM BLOG
Well once again I am awake at 6am... :/
I always say i will go to sleep at the right time and it never happens
I have a very important audition on saturday and feel without the right amount of sleep im going to be a mess :(
I think after this blog i am going to get some shut eye!!
Funny story was stevie my awesome room mate made me 1am breakfast lol.. no wonder i feel OBESE!!
but thanks darling.
He wants me to play call of duty on his xbox and I want too but i'm not fond of games..
I have noticed thanks to the amazing wonders of google my views on this have shot up
So for all my new readers!
HELLO!! DONT BE SCARED!! :)
subscribe because I only have 1 subscriber :(
I am so shocked that the world wants to hear what i am saying and thinking and it really makes me feel special so keep up the views everyone!
Anyway i am gonna boost because I am mega tired!
Night everyone :)
xxxx.
P.S I will do a lengthy blog later when I'm awake so keep your eyes peeled! :)
Stevie (With short hair) & I
HEY EVERYONE HAVE A LOOK AT THESE! :)
Just incase you were wanting more Kimmi action :)
These are my video's from youtube
Dont forget to click the ad's at the start of the videos & then little Kimmi makes some money :)
Nah im joking do what you want :)
HEY GUYS CHECK THESE OUT :)
So this blog hasn't got enough Kimmi action on it??
Not to worry! Check these videos out :)
And dont forget to click the ad's on the video's cause then little Kimmi makes money :)
Lol! Nah im joking do what you want guys!
here's the videos!
Enjoy!
Monday, 23 April 2012
GUESS WHAT!!
I have really good news on the moving out situation. Im crouching on a chair listening to the summer set :)
it's a sunny day yet im really cold. :/
ANYWAYS!!
I recieved an email from rettie & co a letting company from Glasgow
I have found a modern 1 bedroom flat in Maryhill & I have been granted a viewing on saturday
This could be the start of my new life... i hope!
So Stevie & I are going to go to the viewing and if i like it I need to pay them £150 asap
If this works out I'm going to be so happy.
Problem is... funds :/
Money will be tight but I bloody hope I like it
"Im at the first hurdle but When i reach the finish line It will be worth the stress"
:)
Anyways i need to go I'm going to tidy my baby's bedroom because it's all messy
ciao x
Sunday, 22 April 2012
Seek bromance!
So this song is stuck in my head since listening to it & it reminds me of the good old days
back when i lived in Ayr, South ayrshire
Crackin place to live
Crackin beach!
Amazing flatmate :)
Her name was Fiona & we were all about the clubs and getting down
A more simpler time aw how we loved it! I loved living with her & her wee man thomas
& being honest, I miss those days. :/
I used to say this video was about me & my boys jono & kevin & it so is!!! :D
Love you guys! & fifi!
FUCK SAKE LEAVE HIM ALONE
This is like an angry letter to myself i guess. I just hate feeling second best sometimes it can be so difficult when you feel so strongly yet they love someone else that is life i guess. i accept this and this blog is only really to help me deal with things in a creative way, I do want to say one thing to this person though and that is to shut the fuck up!! if i randomly bumped into her in town. i wouldnt be responsible for my actions. I would see red and attack... and no i cant fight for shit but i respect people that much that I would do it.
Cant you accept he's happy and stop dragging things out, leading him on, & fucking his feelings up.
talk about a mindfuck?!
Jesus!
This certain person needs to get a grip & i dont care if she is reading this. she needs to get off her high horse & stop thinking the world owes her a favour cause it bloody doesn't at first I was happy because you made him so happy I even tried to get you & him back together. Because i was always looking out for his best interests.
& If he feels he needs you to go on then by all means I will back out & let the love & fireworks happen
darling, the only way he will know how you feel is if you tell him. It's not that hard. like i said get off your fucking high horse. Taunting him like this & leading him on like this wont help ya babe. It will only make him resent you in time... do yourself a favour and stop fucking him over.
You want him? contact him... easy as that... tube.
FUCK SAKE
In other news i spoke to angry grandpa and he is now my grandfather on facebook hell yeah! :)
he also thinks im purdy & i just want to give him a hug he has entertained me so many times & kept my spirits up so yes he deserves a huge hug!
I wish i could still play second life as im missing my lovely american friend kristy, (She is the only long distance friend i have apart from Jenn who is born & bred as a scottish chick!) But yeah.. anywaaays.
I miss the escapism it gives you. Sometimes my emotions eat me up inside & i feel like running and jumping off a cliff. Guess i care too much... that's my downfall.
OOH P.s i want chocolate and cant wait til im paid!! anddd I really want to play my machine rainbow riches community cash mmm yeah. (I wont spend much i promise) :P
Oh the simple things in life. I want to escape & need to find my freaking ipod & imagine im on a beach listening to you. you make things easier mr.ipod. If i could i would marry you.
Anyways im away cause i'll end up saying something i will regret. (or i might have just done that... )
Fuckk...
Monday, 9 April 2012
Sorry guyz
Hey sorry guys i havent updated my old blog in a while
reason? - I was preparing for my party aha.
Had a good sleep in til about 1 then got up and got ready tried something new with my hair which went down a treat :)
i basically curled it using straightners. i never thought it was possible as my hair is so short but it worked! and i got a great response! xD
yayy!
So once i was ready and the like i came downstairs to meet Liam stevie's friend it went well & Stevie said i was very pretty :)
So we got our stuff together and headed for the train when i was on the train to Ayr i got a text from my bro Kyle who said he was on the train so i used my noggin & went looking for him :)
i found him hurrah! & we got a good chat underwaay!
Next thing i knew i was in Irvine. and the surprises kept coming!
I was meeting Jono at the car park when Ria & Edmund showed up together so huge hugs happened! Then we met charlotte & her friends & there was a group of about 10 of us. then i get a text from Albert saying him and his friend were already there :)
Got to the house once getting some drink & there was about 10 people already there haha!
What a surprise!
But a great surprise! :) so i partied onnn! & got some awesome gifts in the process!
I got a lovely bottle of Chilano wine from Jono & a special wine glass that said "Cheers my dears" :D
& a huge slab of galaxy chocolate. :) & from ria i got a gorgeous necklace :) & a lovely bottle of Baileys!
yummm! and from Kris Ria Lyndsay & I got a home-made cup cake!!! :D
& It was scrummy! Jono knows that more than most of us ;)
So anyways it was a great night & i got VERY drunk.. & passed out LOL
There were loads of photos and i cant wait to put the best ones on here :)
So hurry up Kris! get those photos to me!! xD
Im waiting on a macaroni pie!! :D NOMMMM
Here's some photos from the party we have so far :)
Stevie, Connor & Liam
Jono & I :)
Jono, Kyle & I :)
Kyle & Jono
Ian & I :)
I just wanna say also thanks everyone for coming it means a lot to me! :)
Stay funky and keep reading my blog
Cya!
Wednesday, 4 April 2012
A DAY OF ALL SORTS
Sorry i havent been blogging recently guys!!
Just a little update on my life!
It was my birthday yesterday.
I turned 20 at 9.27am :)
So yea im offically 20 years old now.. :/
woaah.
So i got woke up by stevie offering us breakfast as always! hehe
And it was an accident but i fell asleep on my birthdaaay.
Woke up and thought to myself "I cant sleep on my birthday" So i got up thinking it was late and it was only 12.
I had a think what i could do to celebrate and decided a visit to my hometown and to see my family was the ticket :) Before i left Josie (Stevie's mum) had a surprise and basically she bought me all the presents i can think of! Jammies,Clothes,Perfume,Underwear,Make-up,Bath Soaps a lovely cosmetics bag & a handmade card :) It really put a smile on my face she really is an amazing woman :) and does so much for me! Thanks Josie! :D
So we thought the best way to get to Irvine is get the panda bus so me and stevie ran like idiots through a busy shopping centre to get to the special bus!.. haha i know what your thinking but it actually is a panda bus.
LOOK
Also i nearly got ran over trying to chase that bugger! the reason, there is only one a day and we had 2 mins to spare. So imagine me running into the road after a panda bus screaming come back!! lol
Turns out that panda bus was out of order and Me and stevie were able to board the right bus :)
So we got to Kilmarnock and i thought let's visit my amazing friend Jono at his work it was so awesome seeing him again after so long... i hugged him so many times! :D god he makes me happy!!
Then we eventually got back to Irvine
Everything went okay at first
Got a lovely earrings and necklace set from my mum, & a lovely gift card from my dad quite shocked at my dad he was so nice to me :)
Then we went to a chinese for dinner Mammy,Daddy Stevie,Sean & I it was a lovely meal and at a very good price. thats me always on the lookout for a bargain ;P
Came home and mum didnt exactly roll out the welcome wagon :/
however she cracked open a bottle of bucks fizz & Stevie pretty much drank the whole bottle :P
Naughty boy. Then i had a good catch up with my mum & eastenders :) i do miss her just wish she didnt make things dificult & wish she understood Stevie is my rock & i wont leave him! for anyone.
He has done more in 3 months than my outside family have done in my whole life for me so why would i throw that away?
So me and Stevie had a plan we would get the panda bus back to Edinburgh but i was exhausted after the night before so we opted for the train it was a struggle getting out of the house but eventually we got out.
& to make matters worse we took some clothes from my house in Irvine in a black bin bag we hadnt washed and looked like tramps an embarrasing day in Glasgow was had :(
anyways!
We had a nice journey since our music devices had died Me and Stevie had a good long and meaningful conversation and I freaked him out talking about clouds lol!
So we get back to Edinburgh and im relieved thinking everything is good i then get Asaulted!! how the hell did that happen?! ... It was because i was carrying a black bin bag fair enough i looked like a jakey/tramp..
but that's no reason to lash out at me! :/ Dont fucking judge a book by it's cover!!
Stevie told me to report to the police so i did & im waiting on a phonecall on saturday... hopefully things will be sorted and the lassie will be fined.
I believe in Karma so she will get what is coming to her!
Ive done my first Vlog would mean heaps if ya watched it! :D
Also dont forget to subscribe
Cazzyface
:)
THANKS FOR THE LOVE GUYS
My next blog will be up tomorrow :) Ciao!
xxx.
Sunday, 1 April 2012
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!
I was upset earlier when It hit my birthday.
Well I will be 20 At 9.27am lol.
But still yeaah!
So the second It hits midnight Stevie Gave me a birthday kiss & sang happy birthday tehe! :)
It was lovely!
Then we snuggled!
& He done this very weird.. but adorable thing!
He basically gave his body parts voices! (I wish i was joking!) LOL
I had my head on his armpit and he thought it would be funny to give him a voice!
"Hello Kimmi Im Mr.Armpit word on the street is it's your birthday!!" Lol!
Oh dearr! What am i gonna do with this silly man!
Cant wait to celebrate my birthday properly on friday at my birthday party it will be pretty amazing :D
Cant wait to see all my friends & have a dance & a drink and just enjoy my life.
Although i miss my mother dearly & feel i should be spending this day with her I will see her on saturday and sort stuff out.
Hope she's got me a birthday card :)
Stevie also says he has big plans for today oooh wonder what they could be
Perhaps i should ask Mr.Armpit? :P
Haha! anyways im gonna boost!
Have some picacha's!
MY 16TH BIRTHDAY - HOPEFULLY THIS ONE WILL BE JUST AS GOOD!
MY 18TH :)
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